title: "Focus" date: 2020-01-24T05:45:13+11:00
It's been almost a month into the new year now, and this year in particular I struggled with resolutions. I was going through my things and found my ones from last year. I didn't review them enough to remember them throughout the year,and they were vague enough that even now I feel as though I did do a good job on them. My point is talk is cheap. I've always been one for talking up a storm, but I don't generally walk the walk.
So it's a good thing I'm struggling with a resolution. I struggle to pick one not out of fear of failure, but out of false ambition. The whole point of a resolution is to be held accountable. Resolutions are just thoughts, saying them outloud makes them real, and motivates people to take action. But it's not my thoughts I'm concerned about managing anymore. I am more concerned with my ability to act, managing my focus. It seems 'solidifying' my thoughts here online and when making resolutions, doesn't motivate me to take action. Hence, the struggle.
I suppose in an ironic way this is me just making more talk. We'll see if I actually get on to the doing.